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This week there was talk of violence against Asians in America and the anger rages on back home as I sit in my quiet little studio near the sea in England. I miss my family and lifelong friends, sometimes it's a little bit depressing to feel this isolated, but I have a weekly gathering with my brother and sister... weekly lessons with about a dozen students online... a little garden behind the house to keep me busy and this studio to occupy my mind and imagination. But sometimes the horrible things in the world intrude on the oasis of calm I've created here and it breaks my heart. Today, I could feel the sadness creeping into my mind and bones like a deathly chill, so I looked through recordings I'd made on my phone over the past few months and came across this upbeat song and it just felt right for this week. I stood in my tiny kitchen, dancing with my own shadow, singing out loud until the sadness had to let me go for now. I hope these words will comfort someone and when I release the song, I hope the melody brings a feeling of being emotionally uplifted as it did for me tonight.


With love and tears.

Rhonda




I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

Because it all came tumbling down, down down

Yeah, it all came tumbling down


I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

Because it all came tumbling down, down down

Yeah, it all came tumbling down



All the fear and the worry

And the feeling that I’m never gonna make it through

All the fear and the worry

And the hurtful things that I’d say to myself

It all came tumbling down, down, down

It all came tumbling down.


I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

Because it all came tumbling down

Yeah, it all came tumbling down


All the fear and the doubt in my mind

All the fear and the doubt in my mind

All the fear and the doubt in my mind

It all came tumbling down, down, down

It all came tumbling down.


Yeah, it all came tumbling down.

I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

I got a feeling

It’s gonna be okay

Because it all came tumbling down

Yeah, it all came tumbling down





All the fear and the worry

Yeah, it all came tumbling down, down, down

It all came tumbling down.


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It’s not a crime to walk down the road.


And what he said that night, I guess we’ll never know.


But Sarah, Sarah… it’s so wrong.


Your smiling eyes are gone.


It’s not a crime to walk down the road.


And what he said that night, I guess we’ll never know.


But he didn’t even need a fake ID...


If he stopped you... and told you... he was with the police.


Sarah. It’s so wrong, it’s so wrong.


That your smiling eyes are gone.


It’s not a crime to walk down the road.




RIP Sarah Everard. They found your body in Ashford, Kent today and I looked at your photo. Your eyes were so filled with laughter and life... I just felt really sad that a police officer, someone we're supposed to trust and turn to for help... took your life away. Rest In Peace Sarah. This is going to be a song in Project Undeniable, but I don't feel like singing today.


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I wrote this song as a warning to young mothers who try to hide the truth about deadbeat dads from their children. There was a time in my distant past when I would send birthday presents and Christmas presents to my kids in their dads name, but they figured it out and in the end it only hurts your children more when they build up expectations about a non-exsistent relationship with their dad. But the biggest problem is the one person in the world your children felt they could trust actually lied to them about something really important and that can damage the trust relationship between mother and child for a long time.


You might think you're protecting your kids by lying to them, but life taught me it's best to always tell them the truth. That doesn't mean you need to say terrible things about their dad, because he is part of them. Do you best to keep it positive and show your kids through your own attitude and actions how grown ups should behave.


My favorite line from this song goes like this 'If I was going to lie, and bear the shame of sending you things in your daddy's name, instead of cards and letters in the US mail, I wish I'd given you this SuperDaddy Fairytale.' I guess if I was going to pretend their dad was all that and more... I should have made him a super hero... or a super spy or maybe an astronaut doing terribly important things to save the world. Sadly, I didn't think of that at the time.


Be happy. Be well. Be loving... especially to youself.

Rhonda


ps: This is Song 10. I'm writing a song a week for a year, but decided to take my time on production and will release them as and when I feel like it... maybe a few EP's along the way... a live concert or streamed live?... and a great big album on Spotify at the end of the year.



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